Unwritten Love Story

Alright This might be a little Jerry Maguire of me (referring to the beginning of the movie where real late at night he decided to write a memo describing how he feels and ends up sending it out to everyone) however I've been watching a lot of movies lately and one genre i like is chick flicks. I just watched August Rush the other day and although i will not concede that it is a chick flick it did circle around a love story. More and more i think about love movies i realize that it's all about the journey, about the guy trying to get the girl or the girl trying to get the guy to like him (or some variation of the story) and I've realized that in my own life i think i try to give off this impression that because I have had a few experiences in relationships that i know how its done or that i know what I am doing, but the real truth is....that that journey that i was talking about, that the movies focus on, i have no idea how to get that done. I have a hard time reading my heart or understanding how it thinks or who it wants and although i have tried and tried i still haven't had that magical love story that is told is so many movies. The characters that people portray, no matter what they do, end up with the one they love, despite all the odds.
But that love story that I'm talking about, that amazing journey that takes you to the person of your dreams, i hope for that (though i might doubt that i will end up with it), and hey maybe I'm on that already, maybe that girl is reading this, MAYBE i already know her. But then again, Maybe i don't, maybe I'll meet her tomorrow. Maybe my love story will be written soon and i can look back and say, Hollywood got nothing on that! But I'm certain I'm at least glad I'm hoping, because for a while now i have been cynical, i have been thinking about how love has let me down, yes you love.. let me down, with my family, with my friends, with my mentor, with past girlfriends, my heart has been hurt and i have actually started to doubt love. Will i find it? Will it be pure? Will it find me?
Questions,questions and more of the same but you know what i have come to the conclusion of? I am going to give love another shot. Sure it might not deserve it, and it might fail me again, but i still believe in it no matter how many times i get hurt, i know there is pure love out there somewhere, besides on my TV screen. I know there's Gods love, eternal, unending, pure. I know that i love my family and my friends, more then anything. And I also know that Love, I'm going to say this and You better hold me to it, but i know that i am going to try and find that girl, that women, that makes me go miles, and states, and countries and continents to tell her that i love her, and that girl that when things are lost and people leave and the world falls apart around her knows that my love won't do any of those things. So yes, love, that unwritten story of mine that you are cooking up, I'm ready for it, and more then that, I'm not going to give up on it.

enjoy,
arod.